the ending

kalau lah kau tahu betapa besarnya keinginan aku nak jumpa kau sekarang. kalau lah kau tahu aku taknak ikut ayah aku pergi kenduri tu semata nak jumpa kau. kalau lah kau tahu betapa aku perlukan kau sangat sekarang. kalau lah kau tahu betapa teruja nya aku nak balik semata nak lepaskan rindu kat kau. kalau lah kau tahu apa tujuan sebenar aku balik. and if you know how much i need your hugs now. salah ke kalau aku selalu perlukan kau? salah ke kalau aku rindukan kau? salah ke kalau aku lebihkan kau? salah ke kalau aku merajuk? salah ke kalau aku tunggu kau? it just... i miss you so much. 3 hours is not enough for me. i need more. it's not easy for me to delete all of our memory. lagi lagi aku tengah rindu kau sekarang. sorry i can't. and that gift, i don't know how to keep it. when i see it, i will miss the old us. i just really need you right now. before i go back. please. i don't know whether you will read this entry now, but after you read this entry one day, i hope you know that i need your strength. i need you in my life. being together back. even i know it's impossible. i'm begging you AIMAN SYAUQI AHMAD MURTADZA.